Plus it's 2:00 AM and I can't sleep.
I could put a million Eric Idle/Monty Python videos up on this blog and ALL of them would be great for topic starters. When I think that I'm getting to narrow-minded and self-centered, I don't necessarily think of the ever expanding Universe, but how privileged I am to not be starving in a hut somewhere without clean water... Heck, I don't even have to go that far. There are plenty of people loitering outside the Ralph's by my house who have problems I can't even imagine.
When my belief in a god first started to crack, I clung to the belief of Kurt Vonnegut's "God, the Utterly Indifferent." That's the concept of a creator who did its job and then walked away. A non-personal god that has no influence on daily life. Because how could I believe in any god that allowed millions of people to starve or be exploited or abused? I think that to believe in a god that interferes on your behalf, just because you're a lucky or privileged person is selfish, narcissistic, or at least utterly deluded and naive. But then, I let go of the idea of that kind of god, as well.
Obviously, that was just a safety blanket.
